Wednesday, January 11, 2012

My exhaustion has been really bad. Worse than usual. In addition to heightened pain. It scares me. I don't know what's up. I'm apathetic, not interested in socializing, have trouble getting out of bed, and a few other shitty things that make me think my antidepressants aren't working so well. I see my psychiatrist at the end of the month so I'll see what she thinks. The depression is there and I fucking hate it. I just want to cry because I don't know what's wrong with me.

I haven't found a new roommate yet. Financially that's kinda dicking me. I made an appointment for next week to see if I qualify to sell plasma. That would help if it's do-able. We shall see. I'm taking a lot of iron and drinking a lot of water and am crossing my fingers!

I'm currently reading Neil Gaiman's The Graveyard Book and am loving it so much. And I finally watched Sherlock with Benedict Cumberbatch and Martin Freeman and holy god, it's so so so good! I need more episodes immediately!

Nothing much to update as I've been having trouble leaving the house, much less doing anything worth talking about. Hopefully my visit with the psychiatrist will help things.


  1. If you are feeling that bad; you could call your psychiatrist now to see if you can get in sooner?

  2. Sweetie: grieving a loss this big is not something that will go fast, nor will the loss ever go away. It takes time to get used to the world without your mom in it. Keep up with the self-care. Remember that the worst thing that depression does is lure you into the worst things for you - like staying in bed all day and not getting support from your friends. Yes, I know this from experience. *hugs*

  3. should have links to watch the episodes of Sherlock online. The series 2 finale is airing this Sunday! It's very exciting, a great time to jump on the bandwagon.
    I'm sorry to hear about your depression. That's a road I've been down many times myself. Hoping for the best for you!