Food and Adventure!

(I talk about food and amounts eaten, fyi)

So have I mentioned that I’m applying to a university for fall 2015?  I’m terrified.  Like…holy god terrified.  It’s not even a community college, it’s a straight up university.  Oh god.  One of the local universities offers e-programs and I think that’d be a good way to get myself used to being in school again while still being able to work with my depression and anxiety issues.

Since moving I have made the following:

• Chicken salad with pecans and dried cherries (loved)
• Chicken salad with dried cherries, dried cranberries, and slivered almonds (loved)
• Whole wheat pasta with a chunky avocado sauce, parmesan, shrimp, and a lot of red pepper flakes (loved it in it’s final form)
• Curry with tofu, straw mushrooms, baby corn, and tomatoes (it was just a jarred sauce I added the tofu and veggies to and I really didn’t care for it, need to try making my own)
• Jerk talapia tacos topped with honeydew melon and lime (I don’t eat red or green onions or cilantro so that’s probably why they were blander than expected, even with a scotch bonnet pepper)
• Hardboiled eggs
• A shit-ton of squash and zucchini

I’ve also eaten a lot of clementines, grapes, and pumpkin seeds.  I’m already eating 1000% better than I was before.  And by “better” I just mean “what I actually want and that makes my body happy.”  I just need to focus on giving my body what it wants, when it wants it, but also taking in enough calories to function and thrive.

On Thursday I begin my journey.  At the end I will have met Sonya in person for the first time, been her bridesmaid, met 1/2 a dozen internet friends, eaten vegan for over a week, seen a million roadside attractions, met the man I’m in love with (yeah, you heard me), been on six different airplanes, worn nothing but dresses, read a lot, and missed my cats and bed.  I’m scared.  As I always am.  But my friends love me and want to spend time and have fun with me and I want that so badly as well.  I wish I had thought to get something from my psychiatrist for anxiety/panic because I am going to be flooded with both over the next month.  Ack and my pain levels will be hella jacked up and I'll probably need several days to recuperate after each flight.  But OH MY GOD this is going to be an incredible adventure and I’m so lucky and appreciative that my friends are making this possible!!

Books Read in July & August
The Jungle by Upton Sinclair (Could any book be as heartbreaking as this one?  Jesus Christ.)
Firestarter by Stephen King
Nightmares and Dreamscapes by Stephen King
The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde by Robert Louis Stevenson
The Jungle Book by Rudyard Kipling
The White Seal by Rudyard Kipling
Rikki-Tikki-Tavi by Rudyard Kipling
The Wonderful Wizard of Oz by L Frank Baum
The Marvelous Land of Oz by by L Frank Baum
Ozma of Oz by L Frank Baum
Dorothy and the Wizard in Oz by L Frank Baum
The Road to Oz by L Frank Baum
The Emerald City of Oz by L Frank Baum
The Patchwork Girl of Oz by L Frank Baum
Tik-Tok of Oz by L Frank Baum
The Scarecrow of Oz by L Frank Baum
Rinkitink In Oz by L Frank Baum