Wednesday, May 28, 2014

C.R.E.A.M.

My roommate borrowed my car and crashed it. He was driving at night, a deer appeared, he swerved, and the car ended up on it’s side in a ditch. Luckily he’s fine. My car on the other hand… There’s nothing wrong with it internally (a fucking miracle) but while it rolled, one of the windows was busted out and the door was heavily damaged. The mechanic - a friend of my roommate’s - is going to find a replacement at the junkyard and install it for me. He warned me that it may very well be a different color. Which would be kind of awesome! This could have been so much worse. I know numerous people who have hit deer and, on two occasions, it completely totaled their cars. Since moving here, hitting a deer has been one of my absolute mega fears. So my roommate is fine and the problem with the car is fixable. Like I said, could have been way worse. Still, ugh.

Oh and I also discovered that the place I’ve been going to get my car worked on has been fucking me over. One example is that they sold me different sized tires. I’m going to have to work on replacing them with the tires the car should have. Again, ugh.

ETA: And now the car is running really hot but the mechanic friend is going to work on it. He says the crash didn’t cause it so it’s just some shitty timing. I can’t drive it until it’s fixed. So much ugh.

I’m just stressing so hard over money. I need $800 by August 1st to move. Between now and September I also need to come up with money to fly to California for a wedding and stay for a weekish so I can house/catsit while they honeymoon. I’m just struggling.

But September is going to be amazing! I’m going to meet and see so many friends! And in a few months all these complications will be over and done with and I’ll have a new home and have had an amazing time visiting friends and going on adventures! It’ll be worth it and then I can start working on getting my finances together. Hurray!

6 comments:

  1. just curious, what is stopping you from working?

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    1. A lot of things, really. Crippling depression that leaves me incapable of functioning. Social and general anxiety that causes me to sometimes not be able to do simple things like go grocery shopping. Pain so severe that sitting up for a few hours leaves me almost unable to walk for the rest of the day and part of the next. Inability to focus. Fibro which leaves me so exhausted I sometimes can't get out of bed. Rheumatoid arthritis that adds more pain to all that. Nerve damage that makes my hands burn so badly I have to scream into a pillow.

      I lost two of my dream jobs because all of this and I hate myself for it. But it's why I'm focusing on bettering and improving myself because I hope that one day I can go back to school and work again. And I have faith that that will happen. Just not as soon as I'd like.

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    2. I wish that your posts came with Like buttons!

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    3. Oh! Maybe I should look into how to do that!

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  2. Have you thought about doing a kickstarter or gofundme for this? I'll bet a good number of friends and readers would contribute.

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    1. People online have given and helped me too much as is! I'm just not comfortable with asking for more. I can totally figure this out, I swear!! <3

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