I’ve decided I’m going to participate in and finish a 5k. At first I wrote it off as impossible but then realized it’s only three miles. And I walked 1.5 miles last week. Dude, I’m halfway there! I’m aiming to do one by the end of the year so we’ll see how that turns out. It was actually fairly easy. Which still shocks me. But my ankles have been hurting since. I’m going to try wrapping them up and seeing if it alleviates the pain.
I saw my chiropractor and he could tell something was different and then when he started feeling around, I was way more sensitive than I’d been in awhile. I told him about the walking and he strongly suggested that I pull back a bit. He wants me to start with a 1/2 mile, allow my body to adjust, a full mile, allow my body to adjust, etc. Which I know is a good idea. I know me and I know that I would feel awful and like a failure if I couldn’t meet or even improve on what I’d done previously. I don’t want to burn out or give up. I do not want that so I’m taking his advice. Plus my ankles hurt like hell so it’s best to follow his suggestion. I’m going to focus on the bike or awhile. I biked four miles on Tuesday and I was hella proud of myself! One of my goals for the week is to get in the pool!
I was invited to be part of the “Aha Moment” project. Which had me petrified. But I did it anyway because I’m trying really hard to do the things that scare me. And that was the topic of my “aha moment” video. Doing the shit that terrifies you and discovering that the world didn’t end. Trying to live life in authenticity by moving beyond fear and shame.
Being filmed terrifies me so I know I’m going to be bright red, be shaking, have trouble articulating or even remembering my thoughts… Doing the things I’m afraid to do is my biggest goal of the year and this was beyond something I was afraid of. I even intentionally wore a sleeveless dress! Unfortunately I couldn’t get the dress pinned correctly so, I’m sure, my tits were on the verge of falling out. Hopefully the show me from the neck up only!
Every Monday Cassandra and I watch an episode of Mystery Science Theater 3000 on GChat. Yesterday we watched The Incredibly Strange Creatures Who Stopped Living and Became Mixed-Up Zombies. She kills me. For example:
If Narnia is the land beyond the mysterious wardrobe in an English country estate, THIS place is where you end up if you try to force your way through an old water heater in a tenement.