I sold some ad space so I'm going to be able to meet my deductible and see a pain specialist. A new pain specialist. One who will, hopefully, look at my records and understand that I need drugs to manage my pain. So, we shall see.
I was offered $200 to write a blog entry supporting and advertising vaginaplasty. And, because I need the money, I considered it for ½ a second but, ultimately, declined. Because the idea of writing something that would make someone feel badly about their body would kill me. So, fuck it. I told her to feel free to approach me again but plastic surgery and diets were off the table. See what I do for you people!? Kidding! I did it for me as even the thought of writing and posting that made me feel sick. Selfish decision!
My friend is teaching me to knit tomorrow! I'm super excited about it, I took one class many years ago but didn't retain it at all once I put down the needles for a few weeks. Also, Amanda cleaned out her closet and gave me a big ol' bag of yarn! So I'll be kept practicing for a long time!
I forced myself to see a gynecologist for an exam. I really would have just skipped it except Carter said her doctor was incredible and was accepting new patients, which is a rarity. She was so wonderful! I'm now on birth control and they're testing me for PCOS. It wasn't as miserable as it could have been and it's definitely self-care.
I know this is unlikely but... Does anyone have a Straight Talk phone they no longer need? I'm having issues with mine. I can pay shipping but probably not much more than that.
My second summer in the south is a comin'. Totally dreading it yet...there's a part of me that's looking forward to it? I've always had this affinity for summer. I think because I still carry this long meaningless belief that summer means the end of school and an explosion of fun and adventure. I want to do a million things and take a million pictures and wear dresses! And I want to go swimming. I want to taste chlorine. That first step in the water. Sinking all the way in; relief from the muggy air. I want to feel buoyant and weightless. I want to feel free.
(Don't forget the vibrator giveaway!)