Sunday, February 5, 2012

Do you know what my medication would cost me a month without insurance? $1,100. A month. Yeahhhhh. Good god, it costs a fortune to keep me functioning! You have no idea how much I appreciate Medicare. I'm thankful every time I take my drugs. Every single time. Sometimes, though, I wonder if it's worth it. If, based on a costs vs benefits analysis, my living would come out ahead. Yes, yes, anon, I know your thoughts on the matter. Hush.

I have consultations scheduled with two bankruptcy attorneys for this coming week. Which I find terrifying. I have no idea why. I guess because things are easier to ignore. La la la I don't see you! I can't actually afford bankruptcy but it'll be good to know what I'm saving towards.

I see my therapist tomorrow. I haven't seen her since before I went into the psych ward. I'm planning to start seeing her weekly and working on some of the shit in my past. This scares me but makes me hopeful.

A man I like very much – who lives in Atlanta – is, hopefully, coming to visit me at the end of the month. It'll make me very happy. And I like a happy Heidi!

8 comments:

  1. It makes me happy that at least some of the taxes I pay, or more aptly, will pay in the future, are going to help people like you that rely on federal assistance for medication, food, and more. :)

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    1. You're such a sweetheart. Thank you, honey.

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  2. I filed for bankruptcy last year. Maybe you can use your tax return towards it? Try to take in as much info as you can: the most recent statements/collection efforts for all of your accounts, last year's taxes, income statements, etc. Honestly, it's a pretty cut and dry process and not terribly painful at all.

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    1. Unfortunately, because disability is untaxed income, I don't receive any sort of refund. Boo! That was a kick in the ass the first year!

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  3. If you met someone else who was taking all the same pills, would you ask them if their staying alive was a good thing in a costs/benefits sense?

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    1. Okay, you make a damn good point. I needed that. Thank you. <3

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  4. how much does it cost to become bankrupt?? (not being flippant--really think that sounds nuts!)

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    1. I know, it's so ridiculous! It'll be at least $1,000. Probably more. It's going to depend on how complicated my case is and what the lawyer fees are. It's going to take me YEARS to save up for this shit!

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