Saturday, January 28, 2012

Totally qualified to sell my plasma! If I go twice a week (the max allowed), it'll bring in a decent chunk of change after gas expenses. I've gone three times so far and the waiting takes foreverrrrr and they're really lacking in finesse when it comes to jabbing the needles in but I can read and listen to my mp3 player so it's manageable. The random annoying thing is they don't want you to fall asleep during the removal so you're not allowed to keep your eyes closed. Which sucks because the shit would go by a lot faster if I was allowed to just close my eyes and listen to music.

I'm going to try to find somewhere to volunteer in that area. So the drive will be more of a two birds, one stone type thing.

I'm trying super hard to be more social. I've been isolating hard core for months but I'm trying to change that. I went out with a group of friends last night and it was awesome. And I had an amaaaazing makeout session last weekend. Amazing. Like, the best I've ever had. It was lovely. He and I have hung out a few times and I dig him so I'm hoping for a repeat session soon.

I saw my psychiatrist. I told her about my severe apathy and isolation. She upped both of my antidepressants so I have my fingers crossed.

Things are...alright. Like, I think I can do better and get shit together. I'm hopeful. I think it's going to be okay.


  1. GOOD FOR YOU, HEIDI! Take it moment by moment.

    I just started therapy w/a psychologist a couple weeks ago; been slightly helpful, but I have a lot of work to do, starting way back from childhood. I think it's going to be okay, too. (((((((HUGS))))

  2. Have you checked out Mystery Shopping at all? If you could find some in that area then it might make it more worth your while/gas money too. I wrote an article about how to get into Mystery Shopping here:

    it's been my sole source of income for several months now, and I really recommend it.

  3. This is a good update, Heidi. <3 I'm glad things are progressing in a good way. :)

  4. You are definitely going to be okay. Just remember, asking for help is a sign of strength not weakness. Every great person in history had help to get where they did. I'm proud of you for putting yourself out there and being social. I know how hard that is. I love you and I believe in you!