Saturday night it hit me.
My mom is dead.
I spent most of a two hour drive home crying and screaming at the top of my lungs. I felt so empty and alone. It really was a bad night and I have no idea what triggered the realization but it hit and it hit hard. I've been in bed for two days, crying. I don't know how to handle this. Is this grief or depression? I don't know what's normal.
The flip-flopping between emotions is so exhausting.
I'm trying so hard. But failing so badly. Please don't hate me for being weak.