Self-loathing is not a fucking character-builder. It doesn’t make you stronger. It doesn’t make you better. It’s just an ever-deepening, creepy-ass trap; a trap that is a huge moneymaker for corporations that do not have and never will have good intentions. You’re not disgusting. You’re not freakish. You’re not ugly. And you’re never going to be perfect. And holy shit, that is so okay.
- Jane, Casual Blasphemies
I had grits for the first time! Carter made us breakfast and it included scrambled eggs, cheese grits, biscuits, and Conecuh sausage. I also stole some of Mel's MorningStar fake sausage, which was also really tasty. I was a fan of the whole meal! Other heavenly foods recently consumed at their house include squash fritters, homemade macaroni and cheese, and shrimp bruschetta. Oh, we also ate sno-cones. They're different here; the ice is really finely shaved and melts in your mouth. I got a watermelon-vanilla with cream. It was amazing. So it's been a good week in the culinary world.
I went to a pool party and swam naked. It's not like I was the only one! Those moments between getting undressed and walking to and into the pool just destroy me. But I did it anyway, damn it! I mean, it was a kink party so it's not like some of them hadn't already seen me naked or would, most likely, see me naked at some point in the future. But stillllllll, it's just hard to be naked in daylight around a crowd of people. There was also really good food there. God damn. I experienced my first low country boil! Which is potatoes, tons of shrimp, corn on the cob, and sausage. Man, it's all coming back to food this weekend, isn't it?! Dude, it's the south - every social situation revolves around food! Damn good food, at that.
I've been wearing dresses! I went sleeveless at the pool party and around a few other people but I'm still terrified about it. I went sleeveless in Earthfare but it was the 4th and there were, like, six people in the store so it hardly counts! I'm going to continue with the dresses and try to force the sleevelessness. I'm determined to get over this shit.
I'm mega burned out on socializing. It's just been too much time with too many people. So I'm taking a few hermit days.
The shuttle launch is getting closer! I'm going to meet up with Greg, who's also attending. Carter and I are hoping to visit St Augustine on the way back. They have a pirate museum! I'm so so so excited for this adventure!