Friday, May 20, 2011


Dashyacurry: Stick a fork in it then, 'cause this blog's dead.

No shit, dude!

I made the decision last night that I need to write more. I've been avoiding it because I just don't have the emotional energy all the time. But, fuck it. I know it helps me and I know I enjoy it. Even if others don't.

What do you all want to know about? Seriously, I'm open for suggestion!

My life is pretty much physical therapy, psychological therapy, physical therapy, nutritionist, rinse and repeat. And it's awesome. I'm getting my shit together and getting the help I need and it's fucking amazing. And I'm grateful every single day that I trekked my terrified ass across the country because my worst day here has been better than the best day I'd had in years.

I want to change. I want to push myself. I want to be better. Stronger. (Faster. Harder.) I want to become the person I fantasize about being. And I know that person writes in here. But it's been so long since I've written about anything other than pain and fear that I'm not sure I know how to anymore.



  1. Tell us about any plans you are making? Are you thinking of going to school, getting a job...and post some photos plu-leeze!

  2. Maybe have blog followers submit topics to cover for blog entries?

  3. Write about your therapy. I'd like to know about the physical therapy, especially (b/c I've been to a shrink so I know how that goes).

  4. I would be happy to hear about any of the following: how your physical therapy is helping your pain levels, what your short-, medium-, and long-term goals are and how you're doing on meeting those goals. I especially vote for short-term goals -- I want to know what you're up to and hoping to do.

  5. Who am I to talk? I don't blog everyday. But I don't think it has to a a big event to blog about. How about some small story from you day. There is always a moment that is worth telling someone about. What is the thing that happened today that you would come home and tell your room mate about?

  6. Lady, you wrote a list in your previous entry! Write about that stuff!

  7. Some suggestions for stuff I am curious about

    -I would love to read about your journey to healthful eating and relearning to trust your body for nutrition etc

    -I want to hear about how your pain levels are effecting your body image and how physical therapy is effecting it too.

    -Also, and I think this may be too much to put in public, but how you are dealing with the outcome and process of your WLS and how it is effecting your life.

    I love your blog, I love how real you are. It feels like reading letters from a good friend.

    -Oh and how BDSM is helpiing with the emotional pain if in fact it is.

  8. Hi Heidi. I've been waiting with bated breath to hear about this thing you teased us with awhile back: "I have an email to write to the person involved. Maybe it'll just be easiest to edit out the identifiable information and post it." So maybe you could start there?

  9. Do you have any memories from your childhood, good or bad or funny or interesting that you might share?

  10. Ya know what? I don't think you should change a thing about this blog (except maybe writing more!). As someone who has read your blog for a long time, even just reading about a little breakthrough in physical therapy makes me very happy for you! And proud of you! Keep up the good work kid, you're a massive inspiration :)