Saturday, March 6, 2010

Wonder

The way it felt to be in his arms. The way my car smelled after we spent time in it. His mouth on mine. His hands on my body. The feeling of safety and contentment. Laughing so hard my face hurt.

I loved being with him.

I loved loving him.

All that good wrapped up into such a short period of time.

Knowing I’m capable of feeling and experiencing those things…there’s something so wonderful about that. Even after the loss. Even after the pain. Even after the hurt. That wonder is still there.

I just need to remember… It’s going to happen again. It will.

It will.

5 comments:

  1. Fucking A it will. You deserve it and will have it :)

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  2. Yes, it will happen again. ((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))

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  3. I'm seriously starting to think that these guys have their own self-esteem issues. You're honest and good, and once they spend enough time with you, I wonder if they're now all, "She's better than I deserve."

    Of course, the fact that they don't bother to be honest enough to tell you this themselves, or good enough to face you with their fears, means that you ARE too good for them, and it's best you know now, so you can move on quickly.

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  4. Believe in it, there are good people out there and some day you will find the best one for you. I am glad you remember the good parts of the relationship....and isn't it wonderful that you can give yourself credit for remembering.
    Hope the rest of your day gets even better.

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