Tuesday, March 2, 2010

It’s bad right now. So bad. So bad I can’t even put it into words. Crying and sleeping all day and suicidal ideation. Isolation isolation isolation. So fucking dead inside.

I have a call into my psychiatrist. I’m so close to checking into the psych ward because I don’t know how much longer I can last. I’m holding on with my fingertips.

I’m trying. I really am. I’m trying so fucking hard.


  1. Oh, no, sweetie. ((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))) If you need to go, though, don't hesitate, but hold on if you can.

  2. Heidi, I am so sorry this is happening to you. If you need to check into the psych ward, do it. Just PLEASE get the help you need somehow. You shouldn't have to face this all alone.

  3. Heidi, check yourself in!!! Then they will have to treat you and get you stabilized. Treating brain chemistry issues is no different than managing any other disease/disorder. Don't let shame stop you from getting the help that you need and deserve!! If you had cancer you wouldn't wait around to see if it would just get better on it's own, you'd get it taken care of. JUST DO IT!!